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I dunno if it's me or anything else, but collage feels a lot harder this semester, and the fact that I failed most of the subjects (4 of 5) due to health problems, aka mah hypertension makes mah brain go crack, so I couldn't understand anything the teachers said D:
.... and being the coward I am, I was very afraid to tell mah mom, cuz she is very.... fiery when it comes to this problems, since I had never failed her in school since kinder garden .____. yeah it was a very sore spot to touch with her, but she managed to discovered it.... how in the hell parents have the power to find out everysingle thing we can to keep as secret?!? That's beyond mah knowledge ¬¬UU
BUT WAIT, IT GETS WORSE!!!... not only mah mom discovered it, but also gimme a speech about trust.... and in a mail she send prior to the speech, she wrote that she KNOWS that I like boy love/etc.... you can imagine mah color face when I read it... she called it: Erotic Homosexual Novels (she only knows I write fanfics about it only..... thank god XD) but later when we became in good terms after the speech, in which she threat me that she will take me out from mah collages (cuz it's expensive and we have some economics problems, so... you might found out why she said it to me), so in few words I, Makoto Hayama, MUST PASS this goddamn semester!
Actually, I just took mah first terms... wish me luck, cuz I'm fearing mah stance in collage =A= On other note, far from collage subjects, I have been a little down... nothing to worry about to the extreme. But I really need to take it out from mah chest...
At the being of the last month I had been in friction with mah 2 roommates, little ones, but the other day I feel really badly attack by one of them... I just forget to do somethings, cuz I had be busy with the terms, since I have them day after day... while mah roomies have one or two days between them.
So the other day I was studying for mah... programming exam, and I was taking a little break... and talking or expressin myself about how stressful I was for having little time (hours basically) between mah exams, and I would love to have one day rest at least between two of them... and mah other roomie (who by the was doing anything else but studying) told me: What are you crying about?.... this is collage, I was trying to tell her I was tired of studying day after day without a little rest, she said: Oh god, please don't give me any excuse, I don't believe you
I almost wanted to start crying in that point, but that isn't all... after taking my last term, I arrived very happy to the dept. and ask (by curiosity) who will have a term tomorrow, and both of them replied they do. So, I with the best intentions I told them: GOOD LUCK =).... and what int the f*** one of them told (one friend I know since 7 years ago)?? You sucker! -silly laugh-
I know she never intented to hurt me, cuz she is very noble, but that word... that single word REALLY hurt me TAT after that I didn't wanted to be in the dept the next day, that's why I told a friend is he could gimme a little refugee in his house today, he accepted and now I only waiting for the classes to finish and go to his house.... so I can play wii! 8D..... and stay away from mah roommate a day at least!
Sooo.... this is the.... monthly(?) report, hope to write more soon.... I really feel better when writing.... maybe mah mom is right... I can try and make a living writing erotic homosexual novels if I dun want to study anymore, but in fact I want to study so I can make a videogame.... maybe... in a far future one of mah wanna-be ideas for videogames will make me rich and help mah mom for everything she had do for me, since mah dad's death when I was 5 years old.
.... and being the coward I am, I was very afraid to tell mah mom, cuz she is very.... fiery when it comes to this problems, since I had never failed her in school since kinder garden .____. yeah it was a very sore spot to touch with her, but she managed to discovered it.... how in the hell parents have the power to find out everysingle thing we can to keep as secret?!? That's beyond mah knowledge ¬¬UU
BUT WAIT, IT GETS WORSE!!!... not only mah mom discovered it, but also gimme a speech about trust.... and in a mail she send prior to the speech, she wrote that she KNOWS that I like boy love/etc.... you can imagine mah color face when I read it... she called it: Erotic Homosexual Novels (she only knows I write fanfics about it only..... thank god XD) but later when we became in good terms after the speech, in which she threat me that she will take me out from mah collages (cuz it's expensive and we have some economics problems, so... you might found out why she said it to me), so in few words I, Makoto Hayama, MUST PASS this goddamn semester!
Actually, I just took mah first terms... wish me luck, cuz I'm fearing mah stance in collage =A= On other note, far from collage subjects, I have been a little down... nothing to worry about to the extreme. But I really need to take it out from mah chest...
At the being of the last month I had been in friction with mah 2 roommates, little ones, but the other day I feel really badly attack by one of them... I just forget to do somethings, cuz I had be busy with the terms, since I have them day after day... while mah roomies have one or two days between them.
So the other day I was studying for mah... programming exam, and I was taking a little break... and talking or expressin myself about how stressful I was for having little time (hours basically) between mah exams, and I would love to have one day rest at least between two of them... and mah other roomie (who by the was doing anything else but studying) told me: What are you crying about?.... this is collage, I was trying to tell her I was tired of studying day after day without a little rest, she said: Oh god, please don't give me any excuse, I don't believe you
I almost wanted to start crying in that point, but that isn't all... after taking my last term, I arrived very happy to the dept. and ask (by curiosity) who will have a term tomorrow, and both of them replied they do. So, I with the best intentions I told them: GOOD LUCK =).... and what int the f*** one of them told (one friend I know since 7 years ago)?? You sucker! -silly laugh-
I know she never intented to hurt me, cuz she is very noble, but that word... that single word REALLY hurt me TAT after that I didn't wanted to be in the dept the next day, that's why I told a friend is he could gimme a little refugee in his house today, he accepted and now I only waiting for the classes to finish and go to his house.... so I can play wii! 8D..... and stay away from mah roommate a day at least!
Sooo.... this is the.... monthly(?) report, hope to write more soon.... I really feel better when writing.... maybe mah mom is right... I can try and make a living writing erotic homosexual novels if I dun want to study anymore, but in fact I want to study so I can make a videogame.... maybe... in a far future one of mah wanna-be ideas for videogames will make me rich and help mah mom for everything she had do for me, since mah dad's death when I was 5 years old.
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